If you are a music fan, especially of music with a much deeper meaning than surface level business, you should check out the new single from Fever Fever. It is called Beautiful Dream and is wonderful. The song is FREE right now (: check it out! Let me know what you think! And check out feverfeverband.com to see if they are going to be anywhere near you this Spring.
Just clink on the Title and you are good to go!
Much love <3
“Should I worship Him from fear of hell, may I be cast into it. Should I serve Him from desire of gaining heaven, may He keep me out. But should I worship Him from love alone, He reveals Himself to me, that my whole heart may be filled with His love and presence.”
-Sadhu Sundar Singh
this week that I actually have a talent! I am pretty excited about it! I have been praying for a talent or a hobby lately. I struggle with people being lonely and bored and it has been such a blessing because it is a huge stress relief and it is also something to keep me occupied.
I am praying about selling some of my bows and wreaths and if you would join me in prayer about this it would be absolutely fantastic! I am moving next year, and I know the Lord wants me there and I know that because of that He will certainly provide a way. I want to use the money from the talent He has given me to support my ministry and my missions trips and my movie to mission school (:
I am so overjoyed about it. It may seem small to some, but to me, it is wonderful. Thanking my Papa for providing for me ONCE AGAIN (:
(Source: my-ownlittlerainbow, via hisbeloved-kellymarie)
Today I have a terrible cold. It happens to me every year round this time. It has to do with my awful sinuses, working with children and a sucky immune system. I woke up really discouraged. Completely on the wrong side of the bed, for lack of better words. But God is God and God is good. And He is taking care of me today, flipping my mood and showing me His glory.
And I love Him.
Dear brothers and sisters,
I could really use some prayer today. But I wanted to share some of my testimony so that you could see where my heart is right now and why it is breaking.
I used to be a family girl. I was close with my mom. We weren’t the “best friend” type but I could talk to her about most anything going on in my life. I haven’t talked to my mom since before Andrew left for Israel (which was in June) aside from a short 45 second phone call on her birthday. My mom is in a toxic relationship. I was abused in EVERY way by her husband. And I thought it was normal. I have really healed almost completely from the physical abuses that I endured but the emotional abuse is what I have had the hardest time shaking. I was so sheltered but not in the sense that I was sheltered because I was trying to be protected. I was sheltered out of sheer jealousy. My mom’s husband wouldn’t let me have any sort of fun. And I wasn’t a bad kid. I drank. But I was allowed. It was never hidden or a secert. I wasn’t allowed to have a boyfriend. Any boy I liked, my mom’s husband would COMPLETELY destroy. I wasn’t allowed to hang out with my girl friends and I wasn’t allowed to be a normal teenager. I struggle with it a lot sometimes, especially because I have a younger sister (who is 19 now) who has been able to go on vacations with her boyfriend, spend as much time with friends as she wants, and just all around have a good time.
When I was kicked out (for going to Bible Study), no one stood up for me. And I lost my mom in the process. And along with my mom, I lost my sister, and the triplets. The triplets are now 3 years old. They will be 4 in February. I haven’t been invited to a single birthday party. And to be honest, they probably don’t even know who I am. I get really down about it often. I have seen them only a handful of times since I left when they were 3 months old. And they are my brothers and my sister.
I lost my family. My biological father is an hour away. My mom’s family is scattered across the country. Thank You, sweet Jesus for providing Andrew’s family for me. The Lord has used them IMMENSELY to heal my heart. I also really and truly thank the Lord for taking me out of that household. Right before I was kicked out, I read about Abraham being asked to sacrifice Isaac. I was not a believer yet but the Lord was working on it. I heard the Lord speak to me and say “what would you be willing to give up for Me? Would you give up your family if I asked you to?” And He did. He asked me to give up my family. And I did. And I accepted His love and His blood that day, the day I was kicked out. May 25, 2008.
Now to why I need prayer. My sister called my last Saturday to inform me that my mom was going a women’s retreat with her church. My family does not truly know the Lord. It made my heart so happy. My sister asked me to write my mom a letter and MAIL it to my sister so she could get it to my mom’s sponser. My family literally lives right across a soccer field from where I live. I talked to my core group of friends who know me and know my heart and they supported this decision I have made. I decided not to write my mom. For a lot of reasons. One being that the last time I tried to talk to my mom about Jesus (a year ago in August) I got punched in the rib cage and locked in the house by her husband until I was FINALLY able to get out the front door. I didn’t write my mom because I knew he would read the letter, I don’t want him to know what I have to say to her, I don’t want him to screen it and also, I don’t want him to prevent it from getting to her. And lastly, I don’t even know what to say to my mom. Since I was kicked out, we have NOT had a good relationship. Most of the time I am accepting of that fact and at peace with it. But sometimes I get so down about it. Today is one of those days.
So please pray for me, pray for my mom and pray for our relationship. My God is a God of reconciliation. All things will come together in His time. Pray that the Lord really speaks to my mother this weekend. Pray that she would fall in love with Him. Pray that this will be the beginning of a relationship between my mother and her Bridegroom. Pray that this draws her husband to the Lord. Pray that God will touch him and touch his heart. Pray for healing in my family. Pray for me. Pray for peace in my heart and reliance on Sweet Yeshua as my family. He is the best family I could ask for.
In return I will be lifting all of you up today. It is a blessing to have so many brothers in sisters in Christ that have made me feel like I have a place in a family. You are all so beautiful and so lovely. God bless you.
Yes dear sister, He most certainly has! And I am working on it! Starting here in my home town. I will be moving to Bethany College of Missions in Minnesota next fall and then I we will see where the Lord takes me!
My heart strays from my first love on a daily basis yet he never takes back the promises he has for me. He knew what he was getting into when he chose me on before the foundation of the world and his commitment to me is unchanging. How can he be so faithful when I am not? It’s a simple answer: his…
And so it begins.
My official weight loss expedition.
I have been eating a (mostly) clean and healthy diet for about a month now. I have still had the occasional fast food, but aside from that maybe 3 times in the last month, it has all been clean. I have also discovered that I am a fantastic cook if I do say so myself. I am excited about that.
Last night was my first hard core gym workout. I went Andrew’s brother and sister. Andrew’s brother is a trainer and he KICKED OUR BUTTS. But it was fantastic. We put in 2 hours!!!! And it didn’t even feel like it.
Right now I am at 153. My first goal is 145. Then 140. Then 135. And my final goal is 130. (: I am ready! Here we go!
I am Constance.
